[pullquote]True love is very very difficult to get. Surrender is such a difficult task. Total surrender. No expectations. No ego. No complexities. Once you surrender fully there is no turning back! If you can turn back then surrender was not complete.[/pullquote]
I loved few people unconditionally and so deeply that I am still unable to move on. No none of us dumped any of us or betrayed or whatever. I loved twice. Once with a lanky South Indian Kannadathi and second time with a short Bong. Both were two way unrequited. Since then I took extreme caution to fall in love. Both San….. and Anu…. were out of this world. I have had relationships but love is very difficult to handle for me. I get so much involved and selfless that it is very difficult to cut short that string.
True love is very very difficult to get. Surrender is such a difficult task. Total surrender. No expectations. No ego. No complexities. Once you surrender fully there is no turning back! If you can turn back then surrender was not complete.
Also some people might use your emotions while you surrender totally. Emotional mind doesn’t knows pro and cons of rational world.
People feel that we are stupid,needy or downmarket,when we surrender ourselves. Surrendering completely to any one is a one way process. Once mind is changed, it is impossible to undo love. Those who say that they forgot love haven’t loved yet.
I loved twice and still unable to forget. I was in relationship with much better (looking as well as intelligent) girls afterwards but never felt the same (barring one more case which I cannot disclose here since many people I know are also on Quora).
Love is most difficult since it requires melting of your ego,accepting any one fully with flaws and waiting for them to respond appropriately.
Others may not be on the same page as you are. They may take more time to transform. You have to wait for them to arrive.
Confessing your true love is the act of dissolution of ego.
You confess by any means, directly,indirectly or otherwise but if you know that they know it without doubt, your restlessness shall end. Even if it never reaches a conclusion, you are free.
Why I am so restless for those two love stories ? Because both of them proved beyond doubt, about their love (selfless) to me. Be it my shyness or awkwardness or whatever name you may call (personality issues due to troubled childhood), only my mere inability to acknowledge them my love is what still hurts deep down. Both of them thought me as a either ‘not interested’ or ‘interested somewhere else’. Since in my personality it is nowhere visible (outspoken,smart,intelligent,confident) that I may never confess! In fact girls might find it difficult to express their love to me!
This dilemma creates many problems. I go on testing girls and they go on going deep in love. But since the magical moment never arrives, it becomes perplexing for girls. Self doubt begins to surface and later on a lot of chaos settles in.Strange I know all this but can never help.
Love is a dangerous game. Tread with caution.